Today I am going to share one of the incidents amongst many in my journey from a Doubter to a Believer. It was back in year 2002 when I fell in love with my wife after our arranged marriage. After marriage both of us lead a happy romancing life like bachelors. It was the time when I was the most atheist person in the family but time never remains all the same. It did not required some lightning and thunder in the sky and the shaking of earth to become an advocate of the religions and rituals.

May be I am under the influence of my environment as my folks can be always seen indulged in one or another worship or rituals, they periodically visit pilgrimages too.

We were leading a contended life and never thought of increasing our family but in the sixth year of marriage our parents were more concerned and worried for the matter. Even some of the relatives (old women) started whispering and scoffing when the two next couples in the family, one my younger brother and second my wife’s younger sister delivered children.

Since both of us were upgrading ourselves on qualification front, our state of mind and concern at that point of time was not allowing us to end our self-ruled lives. After realising the truth that everything suits with time, we decided to go for a child but after one complete year we were able to pin down some problem regarding conceiving of child. We were cynic for any kind of treatment but still against our will consulted some experts. The treatments included ayurvedic herbs and some allopathic treatments and this all didn’t worked at all.

We didn’t discontinue the treatment and during this period I discussed this issue with my friend Jai who by this time had turned eccentrically religious and used to rush every fortnight to some pilgrimage.  I wished to have multiple children after meeting his sweet twins. He told me that he had already faced this kind of situation and need not to worry. He asked me to get one Yantra (Astronomical instrument with a interlocking matrix of geometric figures carved on a metal piece) and also wrote some Mantra from his big spiritual library. Since I also used to recite some Buddhist chants I respected his thoughts and carefully noted it down.

For next six months or so every time we met after this incident he confirmed with me whether I have procured Shri Santan Gopal Yantra or not and every time I repudiated blushingly. I decided to find it and thus searched eagerly, I came to know that it can be acquired from only one shop in the town. After reaching there I was told that they do not have it any more but they assured me that they will arrange it for me by next week or so. I kept on visiting this shop for next consecutive five weeks and every time got the same answer.

I felt as if my patience was tested I told this to Jai, within a week he procured one for me from the banks of Haridwar. He paid some forty bucks for it but I didn’t pay this small amount to him always thinking that I’ll do this next meet which came after about three months. Though I started practicing the prayers before acquiring the Yantra but things started moving after I actually paid for it.

In Hinduism Yantras are supposed to be for spiritual purposes. They absorb negative or oppositional energies from your surroundings. This allows the energies of positive effort to bear the desired fruit. These are believed to focus the desires and aspirations and begin transforming the patterns of mind into habits of thought that will bring about the desired results. Negative and evil desires can never be accomplished by using Yantras, the mental transformations a Yantra initiates always has a spiritual benefit.

In time machine I kept this post for today when my three daughters as a healthy triplet turn three weeks old. Now I can safely say after this lovely experience that how true is the theory behind. I do not attribute the whole credit to the Yantra but still believe that it helped me a lot in conceiving the thought process for the children and for the right kind of medical diagnosis. The bottom line remains the focus of your attention whether it is some Yantra or Self-help Management Tactics to keep your wish list close to your heart.

Dairy Stanza

Mood: Contemplative